Like the chocolates in that I Love Lucy episode, a constant stream of thoughts runs through my head, independent of the current time/place/people. And like Ethel and Lucy - wrapping some chocolates while letting others escape - sometimes I find myself filtering things that I actually want to say, and other times saying things aloud that I mean to keep to myself.
When talking with people, I may respond to a particular subject based on whatever is running in my stream of conscious currently. Things running through my stream of conscious may include fresh conversations, things I've recently read, and weekly plans.
This week, the coincidental sujet du jour among friends and acquaintances has been marriage/dating. For the past few days, I've had conversations with various people about relationships, like: what a serious relationship means, at what age do you envision yourself getting married, is marriage a priority, and when is a relationship considered "too slow" or "too fast"... Consequently, there has been a lot of repeated hypothesizing and explaining and discussing, all on separate occasions. So I've felt like the topic's been exhausted.
Unfortunately, at the end of this week, the topic of marriage/dating came up again, and my 2-cents was basically, "I'm not a commitment person" and "Marriage...eh."
Which would have been a fine statement... if the people I was talking with had been present for all the other conversations I've had this past week about relationships. But this was completely out of context, without the background info, and hopefully my seeming distaste for relationships/marriage doesn't make it on the Grapevine.
So, clarification - I'm open to relationships and marriage. And I wasn't making light of marriage or people in a serious relationship; that kind of dedication is admirable. Simply speaking for myself though, I'm not at a point in my life where that is a top priority.
At my peers' and my age, we're still changing, deciding what kind of person we want to become. If I find the right person, then of course, I'd want to make things work. Until then, I am comfortable doin' my own thang, and enjoying the freedom of not being 'attached'!
Afterall, going out with someone just for the fun of it, finding out what you like and don't like, is what this period in life is for!
"...'cause girls just wanna have funnn, oh, girls just wanna have fun..."
;) that is all.
